I know all of you were expecting to read what I found out from my Pastor and Nancy. I promise I will get back to that next week. However, I had something happen this week that will make me feel more comfortable in my body.
Two weeks ago I went to my gynecologist, because I hadn’t had a period in a few weeks and I also started having hot flashes. I figured I had might have started menopause, but I wanted to make sure. The doctor decided to do some bloodwork to see what my hormone levels are. I got my results on Thursday and found out I am post menopausal. I will no longer have periods! Why is this important to me? Because there are things that have made me feel dysphoric, during my life. I never realized that they were associated with having a non-binary gender identity. Because if you read my first blog you would know that I didn’t know that there was such a thing as non-binary until I was 44.
What about having a period made me feel dysphoric? Every month my period came around, my breasts got bigger and started to hurt. Even though, for me, this lasted less than a week, it was a time then I would become depressed and hate the body I was in.
When I was younger there where times I would go without having a period. This was because I ran cross-country and my body fat would drop below what was needed to have a period. During those times I always felt amazing, but never knew why.
Now that I know I’m never gonna have another period. I don’t have worry about when are my breasts gonna swell and hurt, I don’t have to go through at least a week of hating myself and taking things out on the people I love.
I just sent a copy of this to my younger child, whom I think may relate to your experience of the menstrual cycle.
I was having issues with the website. Sorry for any confusion. My plans were to publish at 9am. However, my site got a brain of its own a published just the beginning.
You are being tease, Mer! More! More!